2 weeks...

It's been 2 weeks since you left this Earth.
It's seems so unfair and it still really hurts.
I feel your presence, I know you're there.
I thank you for your love, your patience and care. 
I try to smile and I try to be strong. Because I know you're up in Heaven dancing to every song.

Emptiness...

I can't help but to have such a deep sense of emptiness at this time. I know for a fact that I'm depressed, but don't know how to stop it. In fact for most of my life I've been depressed. It's a deep matter that I won't get into now. But let's just say that my happiest days have never been sunshin-y, but slightly cloudy at best. I care so much about life, but don't know how to move on, how to be happy. I feel that I push others away and that they don't care about me. That hurts me so badly because I have such love for so many. Sorry for the but that is my life at this time: sad, cold, lonely & empty!

Almost 2 weeks later, and it still hurts!

Until We Meet Again
Sometimes I cry when I think of you.
All the memories come barreling through.
My head gets heavy, my soul sighs,
I have unanswered questions swirling in my mind.
I'm thankful for the time we spent together and I know one day we'll meet again.
But in the meantime it seems so wrong, that life is fast-paced and the show must go on.
Please know how treasured you've always been and that you'll forever be missed...until we meet again!

I love you Grandma Hazel, always!!