Emptiness...

I can't help but to have such a deep sense of emptiness at this time. I know for a fact that I'm depressed, but don't know how to stop it. In fact for most of my life I've been depressed. It's a deep matter that I won't get into now. But let's just say that my happiest days have never been sunshin-y, but slightly cloudy at best. I care so much about life, but don't know how to move on, how to be happy. I feel that I push others away and that they don't care about me. That hurts me so badly because I have such love for so many. Sorry for the but that is my life at this time: sad, cold, lonely & empty!